~Tiatia

Art:

Well as you can tell I haven't left. I have been drawing agian, and I might be posting some drawings if I get off my lazy butt to do it.

Life: Well I got a job....at McDonalds T-T and I am saving up for my classes for next year and my stormtrooper amor WOOT! I can't wait for it, I want to get out there trooping so bad, I really want to make kids faces light up when they see the "DORK OF THE EMPIRE" come trooping down a childrens hospital wing lol "The goofy troopy" nah to obscure, I want to be funny not...scary? Hmm oh well I just can't wait! Toys for Tots here I come! I may not want kids when I get older but I still love to put on a show for em Uh I'm on my old zoloft medicine again so I'm not so moody, and depressed any more infact I'm quite the opposite, total switch from what I was during school, which btw IS OUT YAY! Senior coming your way thank you I might be traveling to England next summer with my mum and my sisiter *My sister is paying her own way though, I'm earning money for me and my mum's plane ticket next year* I'm going to take a little vacation before college Can't believe this year went by so fast and so dramatastic, usually I have fun years in school but this year was like world war 3 with me and my friends BLACH! * that seems like my middle school life only 100 times less worse than middle school* I guess I'm ok with all my friends, I can tell there are still patches I need to fix, I need to earn my friendship back with most of them, I kinda have been a big "drama tard" for most of them, but I'm going to change all that soon if they give me the chance. I really want it to be like old times but thats asking a lot it seems now a days. Everyone is soooo busy we have all kinda started going our seperate ways, I guess thats why they say high school friends don't last, not like the ones in college that is. But the point I try and make is that I love all my friends, every single one of them even the ones that don't think of me as a friend, they are all very special to me, I would give my life for any of them and thats the down right honest too goodness truth! I want them to accept me as the crazy Jen they once knew the weird, spaztastic, retarted, laughable Jen I'll be that for them from now on, from here on out, no more grudges, no more attitudes, and fights from me, I'm starting off new and I'm ready to get out there and just be me again, and not what everyone wants of me. I'm going to be a friend, not a fakey of wanted attention. Count on it well thats it, g2g for now. Peace everyone sorry for the worry and for being a big butt!!!! But you have to have your off years I guess, its the only way you can tell your normal

<3Tia

Art Life:

Uhh still on drawers block after 2 months now, I can't seem to even draw a persons head D: T_T make it go away art fary!!!!

Life in General:

My life has actually took another turn, this time in the right direction. Me and my friends are back to being friends again, so far no drama *Thank you God! LOL* I think it was just the season, Winter always brings crap, weather wise and emotion wise. I bought BEAWL OMG THAT GAME IS LIKE EPIC I LOOOOOOOOOOVES IT! WAAAAAY better than the last one, OMG IKE AND MARTH *Whistles* And Dark Link is hot!!!! They brought back Captain Falcon the balarenia man that he is mwahahaha! Sorry Captain Falcon Fans he is just waaaay to girly...and cheesy. *beats C.F. with an ugly stick, oh wait he's already ugly mwahahahah* Ok ok enough bashing the ballet man. Anyways I'm in St. Louis right now at my g-mas house for Spring Break, its not really exciting cause we are cleaning out the basement and junk but during the week we are visiting family and other random people. ummmm thats pretty much it....oh and Jess, I'll whip you butt with Marth when I get back, you better BELIEVE IT! LMAO! Peace out home dogs!

<3Tia

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So uh ya I have been having some trouble lately, that and getting into trouble as well. My chemical depression has kicked in again and my mom is putting me back on prozac or zoloft and she is hiring a family councler. My dad is thinking of getting me home schooled next year do to some friend and school problems. I am not sure if that will help me or not. I haven't been my self and its starting to scare me as much as it is a few others as well. I don't really feel like posting what it has been doing to me for it is rather private and I don't want people snooping around my personal life. I just want to post on here that if you start seeing morbid things and very depressing songs on here its because I'm not my self and I don't want to scare you guys so I'm giving you a heads up. I'm trying to take care of this as best I can, I'm trying to fight it with what ever happiness I have left, but most of it has already been wasted on people and past relations. I don't know how long it will take me to get out of this phase I am in, all I know is that right now nothing matters, and for all I know life is just one big worthless unanswered question. I'm struggling to hold on to so many thing, friendships, relationships, and family, that and my self. I am trying, truely I am but please don't fear for me, and even if you don't care I'm atleast greatful your taking the time to read this. I hope you all stay safe, and thank you all for being there for me in the past. Thanks for everything, you all have been great!

<3Tia

Ok who else is totally freaked by the current weather? It was sleeting, thundering and lightning during the middle of winter HOLY CRAP AMAZING! GLOBAL WARMING ZOMG!

So any ways nothing too much going on I got that trade done I believe it looks kinda well I don't know but I am happy with it ^_^ I'm having a party on the 15th I can't wait!!!! woot! SODA!!!! AND BEENIEWENNIES OMG! *flips out* so ya haha I'm hyper and I'm going to a super bowl party at my dads church at 5:00 if any of my friends want to tag along I will be internally great ful if you come!!!! O_O;;; haha! Peace!

<3Tia

I'm sick again, I have been out of school for the past three days trying to catch up on my work and every thing. I have been sleeping mostly. The doc believes I have an inner ear infection and a virus to go along with it. Which could account for my dizzyness, light headness, trembles, and a runny ear O_o? Anyways, I screwed up agian there for I now have 2 poeple upset with me, go figure. I can't do any thing right any more I feel like an invalid who needs help alll the time and it angers the crap out of me. I hope things will clear up, I'm tired of being the bad guy/girl however you want to put it. Other than that nothign going on, I keep trying to start on a trade pic I am doing but I keep falling asleep or getting wound up in something else but I hope to have atleast started it by tomorrow when I go back to school. Well thats it for now, take care!

Tia